It's been so long since I actually posted a proper blog. I've missed blogging about miscellaneous things, though I have noticed that my vocabulary has taken a harsh hit, with my lack of reading and practice. Although it's awful that this has happened, I've come to many realisations during my time away. One in particular, which stands out is the fact that I'm going through a really bad bout of 'teenage angst'. It's affecting my life in sections such as family and friends, which is distressing, as I've become a much colder and meaner person. Or maybe I've become a hell of a lot more blunter... though I think assuming the worst is always good for me as I won't be disappointing myself if I'm wrong anyways.
I don't know if I'm really doing this properly, but recently I've been trying to think of everything through all perspectives. Though of course there will be bias, at least I'm trying. Which of course means I must but heads with my friends, concerning many aspects of life. Hence leading me to think that they judge me and see me through the eyes of lady distain, but it doesn't affect me as much as it would (or what I would've thought it would). This leads me to my other dilemma, which is the fact that my hormones are NOT driving me into the brink of insanity. Right now, I'm surrounded by hormonal teenagers who swoon over guys (and girls) though I myself feel nothing. Now I could say it's because I'm much more mature, but then I would be lying, and I try my best to keep these blogs as truthful as I'm comfortable with. At school, to hide my frustration I usually make the joke that I may be part plant i.e. Asexual, but in reality I'm just hoping that this is a phase through my teenage years. I'm really hoping this will pass soon. It's horrible feeling nothing, I see a 'hot' guy and I no longer react (the initial thought would be "he would make nice babies"-- totally normal...), and my previous celebrity crushes no longer apply. Unless it's a celebrity relation, in which I'm not involved at all but instead a third wheel or bystander.
Which then leads me to another point that has been bugging me to no end. The television program Glee. I really enjoy the series and I can barely stand to wait for the next episode, party because Jane Lynch (Sue Sylvester) is probably the best television character I've ever had the privilege to watch, I just love her blunt forwardness. I've come to the conclusion that she's probably one of the coolest coaches ever, though it would probably be horrible to actually have her as my coach. Anyways, I also love Glee because of two people: Puck and Quinn. They're probably my favourite rooting couple right now, because Puck is just so adorable towards Quinn. Basically it reflects my own freakish fantasy about love (very unrealistic may I add)-- minus the baby part of course. I just love how Puck the horrible bullying jock, is willing to turn over his whole life to support Quinn and their baby, and the idea that Quinn is torn between her boyfriend Finn and his best friend Puck.
Overall, Glee has all the things I love, jealousy, good-looking people (very shallow I know), romance and wit.
