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Labels: - Thursday, July 23, 2009

Hahaha, this blog will begin with an apology for the last blog because I think I was blinded by rage thus the crazy sounding blog. You know what they say, pressure and stress brings out the best of us. Or something like that.


Anyways, I'm going back to school soon so I should really just post one last blog before I go. I mean, I don't want to leave on a bad/crazy note so it's just another random rant about something. Which I'm thinking about right at this moment as I type. Though there isn't much inspiration to ride upon right now.

Oh, I've got it. So I've been wondering, why do we (humans) like some colours, yet hate/dislike others? Well as I was mulling this issue over, during lunch I thought to myself. It must be as a result of association with each colour. Using myself as an example, I dislike the colour pink as it fits into the stereotype of a girl though I like darker more cool colours such as grey and blue as they seem to be more neutral to me. Though for some reason that I can't explain my favourite colour is green, hmm maybe some more mulling will do me good. Hmm, it seems this blog is getting nowhere fast, and it isn't much better than my last one. Well at least I don't sound as insane in this blog.

Well actually, I probably do... well time to wrap this little blog up. Very short indeed. Maybe I'll update when something actually interesting happens...

20/7

Labels: , , - Monday, July 20, 2009

Warning: The following may not agree with your own views, thus I must give you prior notice of such content. Please read with an open mind and think of both sides of the argument before making a decision.

Edit: Sorry this whole document is mainly anger filled but I've got a new thing to be angry about now. But that's for next time (or not)

Recently, I've been having arguments with various people about the topic of if humans are indeed corrupted. Now, I've been reading through various articles and one struck me. It stated that humans are either: extremely talented actors who try their best to bluff themselves as well as others to the idea that they are law abiding caring beings, or undoubtedly evil underneath all their beliefs. Well probably from the way I'm putting things you may (or may not) have realised that I actually believe that humans are evil and are just shrouding themselves to the truth. Though I don't want to come out as one of those crazy people who would do almost anything to prove this. It's just that recently I've found that acceptance may be hard, but it clears the head in some cases. I know most people would shrink away from being called 'weak' or 'conforming' but I embrace such terms. (Wow I'm sounding freaky even to myself) Anyways, I think those who label themselves as being 'non-conformist' and who actually care about the world are really bluffing themselves, as probably 9 out of the 10 people don't really believe it deep inside.

I know I didn't when I used to be pro-everything-good-in-the-world, though now I think being in these teenage years, I've lost hope for humanity and its attempt to be 'saintly'. Of course, I respect people and their own perspectives (which is why I'm not one of those people who would attack you for having a different opinion) as I think, this is what makes our world go round. I mean, when I think about it... how boring would the world be without all the problems we have? It would be like a bleached version of The Stepford Wives. Though those who are suffering may be unthankful to my opinion, I understand where they too are coming from. I mean who wants to be in such a position of starvation/racism/religious persecution etc. Though I'm just saying, without our problems our world would be extremely boring, and we'd just manipulate one another into corruption once again. Which links back to the idea that humans are indeed weak. Then again when I think about it, every living thing would probably have such a weakness too. So really it's not a weakness anymore. Though humans seem to exploit this weakness more, for example: training animals, creating laws etc. It's all about boxing and conforming us, but it keeps the world running.

Hmm... I think if I read this again another day, I would think I'm crazy. Well... it's more for venting my thoughts. Sometimes I hope for a better world, only because I know if I don't I'll probably curse myself into such a life (fate is fickle). So it proves at least I'm weak and I'm able to accept it and not joke to myself. A pet peeve of mine would be people's inability to accept it.

12/7

Labels: , , , , , , , , , , , - Saturday, July 11, 2009

SNSD's new 'Marine' concept...


VS. SNSD's innocent 'Girl-Next-Door' look.


Wow, it's been a really long time since I blogged something. I think I almost forgot my password. Though I'm thinking of posting again during these remaining 2 weeks of holidays.

I mean, all my passwords are alike in some way (to try to make it easier to remember) though I think it just makes it harder. With all of the alike, I end up mixing them up and then forgetting all of them altogether.

So anyways, I'm beginning my last term of year 10 and I've chosen my year 11 subjects. Which is always a blast, though everyone has been commenting on how boring and hard my subjects seem to be. So here's a list of it:
- 3U Mathematics
- 3U English
- 2U Economics
- 2U Chemistry
- 2U Physics
- 1U Religion (mandatory)

Since I've chosen these subjects, I've tried to give myself as much of a wide variety of pathways for my future as possible. Excluding arts, since I really don't think that I would really want to pursue something artistic in the future. Though the idea of if I'm smart enough to actively participate in these subjects has been another nagging issue on my mind.

As I've never been the mathematics whiz kid, I think I would struggle in 3U Mathematics and 2U Physics, as being asian my parents have forced the idea of 3U Mathematics upon me. Now according to a booklet I received from my school about Universities in Australia as well as my own preference for a career in the future. I think that my subjects would be the best choice for my future occupation (University wise).

This is my plan of the future (in order of preference):
1. Veterinary Science - though most people say it's a really hard course and takes heaps of dedication. (CSU - Double degree)

2. Psychology - well like the guy (I think his name was Smeets or Sweets or something) in the television show Bones or the show Lie To Me.

3. Anesthesiologist - I would assume they would learn about pain and how it is registered in the mind or something like that... I haven't really read through it but it sounds pretty interesting to learn about.

So that's what has happened so far at school... Oh yeah and I failed a quiz in my tutoring college so my parents are biting my ass to study more. Little do they know I have a ton of school work to do in the holidays too...

I had a friend who recently transferred back to her original school in Korea. She was a hell of a good student, who finished all her work a while before it would be due. And I swear she had a computer for a brain, she could memorise anything, which was awesome. It makes me envy her, though she was also a good friend of mine. It kind of makes me feel sad, because now we're probably not going to talk to each other much anymore. Though it's just another learning curb isn't it?

PS. For a while now I've been obsessed with this Korean girl band called SNSD (Girl's Generation) and recently they released their new album 'Genie'. Though I must say it wasn't as good as their song 'Gee', their new hit 'Sowoneul Malhaebwa' (Genie) is pretty catchy. Even if I'm not Korean, I quite like their songs. Though their new concept kind of mixes up their whole 'innocent girl-next-door' look. But they're so pretty in their marine outfits!!

And I've also started liking a Korean boy band called 2PM, especially their song 'Again and Again'. Apparently there's also a band called 2AM, which I think is funny.

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Labels: , , , , - Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Topic: Electric guitars and Guitar Hero!

After planning to buy my friend's extremely belated birthday present (I would buy anything she wanted within reason). My friend and I went to another friend's apartment within the city, as the weather wasn't at its peak (it was raining like crazy). Upon our arrival, I saw my imminent love. . . a guitar! Well it was actually an electric guitar, but it was better than nothing right? So there I was trying to read the tabs and chords for Your Call by Secondhand Serenade. Now I had the introduction practically done (though I still had to look at my fingers, which I am told is an EXTREMELY bad habit). Though I also tried to learn the beginning of Wonderwall by Oasis, which to me, was also a green light as I also learnt the meaning of strumming upwards and downwards (it was shown by a u/v and a n respectively). 


Though after a while, my guitar playing was gradually drowned out by the continuous music that was blaring from my friend's Guitar Hero, causing me to stop my guitar playing and proceed to join in their hurrah as the dreaded. . . vocals. Now I must inform you, I hate singing and can not be bothered to sing high notes so most of the times I was singing through my throat, which I am also told is a bad thing too. From playing this game, I also learnt that my coordination is greatly lacking as I was unable to play the drums. . . well I just couldn't do the foot movement at the same time as the hand movements. The guitar part of Guitar Hero was quite easy though, quite contrasting to the real guitar which hurt my fingers as a result of the metal strings. 

Anyways, I just wanted to describe my experiences of Guitar Hero and the electric guitar, which I greatly enjoyed. As I plan to endeavor on my peril filled journey to purchase a guitar and to proceed to learn at least one song by heart. 

21/4

Labels: , , , , - Tuesday, April 21, 2009


Topic: L: Change the World.


Well today was another day that I spent at home, though I was a bit disappointed because I was unable to get my work experience sheet signed (I'm going to a vet!) as I forgot to get my parents to sign the form beforehand. Though not to worry, I shall do it within this week because I want to get this done before the holidays end. I'm really excited about the prospect of going to a vet, because I've been told I was never good with people or being sympathetic. So instead I opted for animals, because they're the next best thing for someone like me who would like to pursue a medical career. 

Anyways, besides the point, today I also watched the Death Note spinoff, L: Change the World otherwise known as Death Note III. Though the original cast makes extremely small cameos. The movie made me feel sad, because it documented the very last case L took in before he died via the Death Note. Though throughout the movie, which tells of a deadly virus that has been unleashed to Japan I felt that the way people who were affected by the virus were portrayed as was extremely grotesque, but I guess that's probably what makes a good movie. Watari's death was also sad, because he was such an cute old man and he was such a nice proxy father to L and all the other people who's names represented the alphabet (I think).

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Labels: , , , , , , - Sunday, April 19, 2009

Topic: Yesterday's shopping spree?

Well it wasn't exactly a shopping spree since all I bought was a t-shirt that I could wear while asleep from Peter Alexander. Though I did see this awesome jacket in Billabong though damn me not, my freaking shoulders were too broad to wear it. Right now, I'm damning to hell my bone structure and wondering why the hell I have such a broad pair of shoulders. It was such an awesome jacket too, the perfect one I must say, and they only had it in size 12 and size 10. . . it makes me kind of depressed how fat I am. After going to DFO (where all the shops are conveniently next to one another), I realised how dirt poor I am or maybe how much of a cheapo I am. Well anyways, most of the nice things that I saw were either extremely expensive or in the wrong size (too big too small, just never right!).


Anyways, I also taught myself how to read tabs and chords for the guitar! Though my learning has been halted indefinitely until I get a guitar to actually see if I've learnt it correctly. Right now, I'm just reading over some of Secondhand Serenade's tablatures, because I need to know the various chords before I can read the chords for their songs. So really, I haven't learnt the chords, but I am aware of the various ways of writing them. Which brings me back to the point of my impoverish ways, as I'm extremely tempted to purchase a $51 dollar guitar on the internet with free postage. (Click the title and you shall find it!)

So overall, I'm currently teaching myself the guitar with an imaginary guitar, and I still haven't found the perfect jacket! Or maybe I have found it, but my bone structure doesn't agree.

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Labels: , , , , - Saturday, April 18, 2009

Topic: Wigs and guitars?


To me holidays are about meeting with friends on a total relaxed and unstressed playing field. Like today, I went to my friend's house and we ended up walking to another friend's house which was awesome. Though while at their houses, and after seeing their cool gadgets it got me back into my passion for guitars. Even without being played, I have to say the guitar is one of the most laid back instruments visually. That's probably what makes it so appealing towards me, though after trying to learn on my friend's guitar, I found that I wasn't a very good guitarist. 

I would have to say, it may be as a result of my lack of musical knowledge (heck I can't even read music), though I have learnt a song through hearing it (there is hope!) Anyways, after looking up chords for a guitar, I was also plagued with the concept of either learning the guitar with my right hand or with my left. As I found it easier to play with the opposite hand that most people learn with, I found trying to learn and get my head around the different chords was probably the most difficult part of guitar playing. 

Now onto wigs, I must say wigs are curious little things. I actually like them a lot, though my friends all tell me it's only because it makes you feel like you're somebody else. Wigs are probably the funniest things I have ever had the pleasure to wear, especially the 'out there' ones, that are white or bright pink. Overall, to me they're just a lot of fun and a nice way to express one's self or emotions. 

Hmm... it seems that I have gotten tired of the continuous blogging everyday, maybe I shall skip it once in a while so that every entry is always going to be as fresh as my first couple.

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